The girl who laughed too much, too loud

April 21, 2008

Wired

Filed under: Love, thailand, thoughts — elyseeteo @ 9:37 am

I was complaining to my Tee that we haven’t been communicating much.

Well. *yawn* right? To all of you out there, who think that girls are always whining and demanding attention.

For us, we are doing the LDR thing. Being in different countries and vastly different time zones=> only means that we are not always awake at the same period of times.

So our ‘connection’ is like… 1-2 mins everyday.  Either when I am 1/2 asleep, or when he is 1/2 asleep.

Occasionally, we will speak about 30mins on the phone. That comes once a week or fortnightly.

And random chats on gmail. Which doesnt happen v often either, cos either I am working or he is working. So it is mostly the weekends. And even so, the time differences really made it difficult for us to have any time together.

So, back to my complaint. Which was completely VALID btw, cos we spend less than 1 hour each week communicating.

His reply was: but we are wired right ?

And I just had to smile. 🙂

And I immediately understood.

April 1, 2008

Sha la la~~

Filed under: thailand, thoughts, Updates — elyseeteo @ 9:22 am

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Hmm.. c’est fait longtemps que je n’ai pas blog a propos des sunshine, les arc en ciels et tous des choses jolies!

Parfois, a cause des problemes dans la vie, j’ai oublie que…

en fait, ma vie etait belle. Elle est toujours belle.

My very short 1 late night and 1 day’s stay in Bangkok is planned to the brim!! 🙂 By my dearest friends.

Really. How can I forget. There are still so many nice people. Even though there are some not-so-nice people around trying to get me down. Or some events/situations getting me down.

I have this packet of blessings that I carry around. I guess it is time to buy a proper nice packaging for it! I’ll be shopping around.

I was reading my recent posts, even since the great depression happened… at least for me. Last May 2007.

My posts has been full of pain and other unhappy things.

My life is no longer as frivilous as before.

I enjoyed my frivilous blog posts more!!

well. I think. I might want to shift back to blogger again.

or get my own domain. cause I really really miss my big eating around the globe pictures as my blog header! Hey, I love food and I ain’t afraid to show it!! 😛

Some of the great things in my life that I am grateful for in Thailand

– DD and VW, these 2 darling old men who cared for me like their daughters. or they rather, like their lil sister. I am really touched by their kind gesture to try to solve my car problem for me!

– my team. Yes, they make mistakes. But they are the sweetest girls you can ever find! with great attitudes too!

-My regional boss. He has been very supportive. Very helpful. Very informative. Very very.

-WW. She supports me in terms of pushing things through and teaches me things about life. In a way, she is an inspiration to me: in terms of no being a push over. She is someone who will NEVER allow anyone to walk all over her.

-Ladee, who is ever so kind to me. Til this day, I wonder why…

-P’Aoy, who is very helpful to me.

-VW (again!) and P’Thanin and P’Wat. The kindest engineers in the world. who helped me with almost all the things I need, in my house and my car. 🙂

– P’Wat+Gate+Axe+some other people who often ferry me back to my house, or to the hotel, because I no longer have my car.

-P’Rung. Although we are no longer as close. She is the one who saved me from having to spend the night at the airport. She came straight away, upon me calling for help.

-Other people who accompanied me to the garage like Dew, Kob, Rung, DD, Ladee.

-Oh, and how can I forget TS. He is one of the greatest FC that I’ve worked with. He is extremely supportive and helpful! work would never be smoother 🙂

-My very nice regional MD

-other really helpful RMs who are extremely helpful to this newbie here.

-some of the lovely business partners like: ST and JTB-san. ST, who brings me to eat delicious seafood all the time! and we will eat ourselves silly.

heh… at this point of time.

I really feel like crying.

I do not think I am worthy of such kindness…

I really think I need to be a better person to them.

Ok! Back to work.

I think I will finish work at 8-9pm today.

March 22, 2008

A bad day

Filed under: thailand, thoughts, Updates — elyseeteo @ 2:57 am

I had a bad day yesterday.

I got very upset. At first, I thought I was upset with my colleague. But in the end, after a night of reflections+sleep, I guess it is mostly with myself.

Disappointment with myself overweighs the disappointments that I might have on others I guess. I was shocked by myself, how disappointed I get, from disappointing myself.

I felt that I was a pushover. In tee’s terms: I was too “Asiatique”.

Asians are known to be accomodating, reserved, and not really able to voice out their opinions especially when they disagree.

As evolved as I would imagine myself to be. I realised, yesterday, faced with a situation like that. I literally ALLOWED myself to be a pushover. Just because this colleague was going to be really angry with me.

I did not hold my stand. AND I know, if the same thing were to happen to her, she would be able to hold her stand well, as she is no push over.

In this sense, I kind-of admire her. I feel that I am really inadequate.

And my punishment was that I had to stay back and work reallllll late. EVEN THOUGH it wasn’t even part of my job! It was her job.

Anyway. I need to observe and learn more from these experts.

I know. I am not “grown up” enough, in these many senses, to handle work politics situations.

Yesterday, I was doubting, if I am ever built for the harsh corporate world out there?

Then this morning, I got to thinking, since I am so much younger than all the high levelled people here. I shall treat these experiences as school fees.

You’ve got to pay, to learn these precious life skills. And also, I have to work harder, cos I am younger and in no time, I will catch with them, in terms of experience! 🙂

Yeah?

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Would still like to continue to complain!!!

I absolutely HATE WOMEN WITH CHILDREN!! At work.

1. If they cannot work long hours, WHY GO FOR A JOB THAT DEMANDS long hours? And afterwhich, push your work to someone else?

2. Just because you have children, doesnt mean that you deserve to have a life more than the other people who do not have children! Just because you have children, doesnt mean that you have the right to go home early all the time! Single people need time for themselves too! Single people need a life too, you know! JUST BECAUSE I do not have plans to go out or whatever, doesn’t mean that I should stay to do your job! Hmm.. maybe I would, if you would share a part of your salary with me 😉

I have my ants and lizards to go home too, you know. They are all waiting for me in my house.

WTF.

I think I need a pseudo child, so that I can say : “Sorry, I would really love to stay and help out, but my baby is waiting for me, and I really can’t stay”.

wtf.

I hate kids.

March 18, 2008

Motivation level and energy level

Filed under: thailand, thoughts — elyseeteo @ 12:56 pm

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The view from my house at 6am in the morning.

Gone were the days that I could wake up so early and drag myself to work.

I am trying to get back to that high energy routine.

But it seems so far far away.

 Haiz.

I really liked that highly motivated, high-energy state of mind.

Not that I am not like that in the day, while working.

But I am just not crazy enough to get up 5:30am in the morning anymore…

Hmmm….

Oops… I am such a workaholic!

March 13, 2008

Drama mama

Filed under: thoughts — elyseeteo @ 12:13 pm

With my current life just an inch away from becoming a drama.

 I wonder, what are other people’s lives like?

Is your life drama too, but you found it difficult to display/expose all the drama in front of your friends? In your real day-to-day life?

I wonder, how many people live their daily life normally, only to go home to all the drama-ness. (ha, is there such a word?!?)

Now if we were to script this particular section of my life.

I think. We will have fresh script of Pi4Li4huo3 part 2 on our hands!

So you see, all those unrealistic drama in sappy, cheesy, overly dramatic Taiwanese dramas do exist!!!

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